"Do you know what you just did?" Doctor Kent puts his eyes on mine.
I stare back at him, my body going cold. I screwed up somehow. That baby might die because of me. I may—
"You ran that resuscitation as well as, or better than, any resident in this hospital would have." Doctor Kent's gaze drifts toward Room Fourteen. "Most physicians—even experienced ones—would have understandably panicked around a sick newborn. You didn't."
I follow his gaze to the now-vacant room, and remain quiet, letting his words soak in. Once I gather my thoughts, I debate for a second or two before I get up the courage to admit to him:
"This sounds stupid, but I was so focused during that whole encounter that I almost didn't realize what I was doing while it was happening. It was like I had an invisible shield around me, blocking out distraction and not letting my emotions affect me. Only after the baby was gone did I start feeling it all."
Doctor Kent doesn't reply. I blush and reluctantly turn to him again, feeling ridiculous. But Doctor Kent isn't about to laugh at me. Instead, he has his eyes fixed even more intensely on mine.
"Welcome to emergency medicine," he says.
I catch my breath as something powerful stirs within me. There's a moment of unspoken communication between Doctor Kent and me, and then I glance around Fast Track once more. I think that I understand it all a little better now.
I stare back at him, my body going cold. I screwed up somehow. That baby might die because of me. I may—
"You ran that resuscitation as well as, or better than, any resident in this hospital would have." Doctor Kent's gaze drifts toward Room Fourteen. "Most physicians—even experienced ones—would have understandably panicked around a sick newborn. You didn't."
I follow his gaze to the now-vacant room, and remain quiet, letting his words soak in. Once I gather my thoughts, I debate for a second or two before I get up the courage to admit to him:
"This sounds stupid, but I was so focused during that whole encounter that I almost didn't realize what I was doing while it was happening. It was like I had an invisible shield around me, blocking out distraction and not letting my emotions affect me. Only after the baby was gone did I start feeling it all."
Doctor Kent doesn't reply. I blush and reluctantly turn to him again, feeling ridiculous. But Doctor Kent isn't about to laugh at me. Instead, he has his eyes fixed even more intensely on mine.
"Welcome to emergency medicine," he says.
I catch my breath as something powerful stirs within me. There's a moment of unspoken communication between Doctor Kent and me, and then I glance around Fast Track once more. I think that I understand it all a little better now.
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This sounds fun!
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