Life hasn't been easy.
I guess no-one's ever is, but I feel that my life had a few too many hurdles to contend with at a young age.
Moving back to the States after spending eight years in England was supposed to be my clean, fresh start, but that backfired in the space of ten minutes. That day would be the start of a completely new life, one that I hadn't expected.
It meant that everything I had dealt with came flooding back to the surface, leading me down a new path, a path I never knew existed.
My childhood sweetheart was back in my life and I had to find a way of bringing up my haunted past to help build another new life.
I just had to climb a few more mountains along the way.
HHe pulls our bodies closer together, connecting us, both of us molding into each other perfectly. He moans deep in his throat and I briefly smile against his lips, loving that I can still cause that noise. But it's that moan that snaps me out of it. It takes me back to the last time I heard it, it drags me through all my old memories, pain and tears.
I can feel my heart constricting in my chest and the onset of tears brimming in my eyes.
Pulling away from his kiss, as happy as it first made me, I can't do it now.
I can't look at him. I don't want him to see that I'm ready to cry, because the moment he asks, I'll break down screaming and blubbering.
I place my forehead against his chest, immediately feeling his racing heart.
Kyle places a soft, lingering kiss on the top of my head. I can't help but smile slightly.
“I'm sorry,” I whisper. Sorry for letting him kiss me, sorry for kissing him back, sorry for stopping it, sorry for wanting to cry. Sorry for a lot of things.
He rubs the back of my head, “You have nothing to be sorry for. Are you okay?”
I nod, dreading that my voice will betray me if I talk.
He wraps his arms around my tightly, squishing me against his chest and I'm immediately thankful I took a shower and didn't reapply make up because he'd be one huge orange and black mess.
“I never thought I'd do that again,” he chuckles, “and it wasn't my plan to do it tonight either, I just couldn't help myself. You just smiled and I realized I had my little ray of sunshine back in my life. I've missed you,” he says, pulling back slightly. I look up, certain that I managed to rein in the tears, and see him smiling softly.
I can feel my heart constricting in my chest and the onset of tears brimming in my eyes.
Pulling away from his kiss, as happy as it first made me, I can't do it now.
I can't look at him. I don't want him to see that I'm ready to cry, because the moment he asks, I'll break down screaming and blubbering.
I place my forehead against his chest, immediately feeling his racing heart.
Kyle places a soft, lingering kiss on the top of my head. I can't help but smile slightly.
“I'm sorry,” I whisper. Sorry for letting him kiss me, sorry for kissing him back, sorry for stopping it, sorry for wanting to cry. Sorry for a lot of things.
He rubs the back of my head, “You have nothing to be sorry for. Are you okay?”
I nod, dreading that my voice will betray me if I talk.
He wraps his arms around my tightly, squishing me against his chest and I'm immediately thankful I took a shower and didn't reapply make up because he'd be one huge orange and black mess.
“I never thought I'd do that again,” he chuckles, “and it wasn't my plan to do it tonight either, I just couldn't help myself. You just smiled and I realized I had my little ray of sunshine back in my life. I've missed you,” he says, pulling back slightly. I look up, certain that I managed to rein in the tears, and see him smiling softly.
Born and raised in a small mining town in Derbyshire, Caroline has always battled with a huge imagination.
Unfortunately, fear also gripped her and that said fear of rejection stopped her attempting to try something that she never thought she'd be able to achieve.
In 2013, Caroline self-published her first book. A young adult, fantasy novel which she'd had in her head since being a child. That book set her off, and was soon cooking up ideas to create more and more stories.
She never once admitted to being the greatest writer, but she's happy and content creating these stories just for your enjoyment.
@c_spencerauthor @IndieSagePromo
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